I have always been somewhat superstitious about new years days. It is the one day of the year that our entire society is encouraged to reflect on their lives and to celebrate change.

Tonight I don't want to think about my life. I don't want to change. I just want today to end.

2000: I kissed Brian N, just a forced peck. One of the only times we ever kissed. He likes boys now.

2001: I had just moved to Eden Prairie. I spent New Years with my parents and (probably) on the phone/internet talking to friends from home.

2002: I kissed Charlie. Jon's parents were gone, so Charlie, Megan, Jon and I played scrabble in his basement. The couples then split up. Charlie and I made love on the floor of his basement in front of the fire.

2003: I kissed Brian. Because Charlie was in the room with everyone, I pulled him into a side room and we dry humped a lot.

2004: I felt sorry for myself.

I called a DJ of a local radio station. We talked about being lonely and being a DJ (because I am a DJ too now!).

I think I am going to go pierce my own ear and try to figure out what I can change about my life starting now.

Andrea