My trip on my own to Vienna and Budapest was lovely. Scarey to be on your own, but freeig in a lot of ways and I was genuinely happy the entire time. I am feeling a peace and independence within myself that I have never had before. Yes, I am still not past what happened between me and Chris, but I am okay with it. My relationship with myself has improved because of it, and that is more important to me than anything, just like in my dream.

The dream wasn't inspired by me being morbid or anything like that. I think I was thinking of my florida grandmother who is just getting older and more out of it, and my neighbors dog who was put down just because he couldn't stop wetting the carpet, and how my time in germany is almost to its end, like another type of death I will return to my old life reborn and happy.